Mend me please

For someone special...I hope you like it.

Broken and scared,

Shattered and bruised,

Alone and afraid,

Need I say more?

You managed to awaken all the terrible feelings that are attached to heartbreak

All because you broke my heart.

I'm confused and dismayed,

Annoyed and I feel betrayed,

Heartbroken and in pain,

Just because I can never call you my own again.

You clouded my vision with ease,

Made me believe that forever could exist.

I gave you my all and in turn I was the fool.

How did I nots see that what you served me was a bowl full of lust.

But I'm okay now,don't you worry.

I'm a writer, 

We never die.

I'll turn my sorrows in a song,

You'll see.

Ayoola Mè 

She said...

I looked at her.

She tried to free herself from my gaze but I didn't allow that to happen.

This was the first time I actually looked at her and I was not going to let her go.

I critically analysed her.

I undressed her inner being with a thirst that only her insides could quench.

"Please can I go now",she said.

She could sense that I was curious

This made it clear that I was hitting home,

Well almost.

"Thing is... I've been through a lot and ... and I don't think... I think it's best if I leave", she said

But I couldn't let her go.

See I was the hunter and her scarred soul the prey.

I wanted to grip my teeth and be rid of her pain.

I would then be her doctor and nurse her to health

And then sign the discharge forms and set her free.

I looked at her.

The scales of her eyes were falling off and then I knew I was making progress.

Scarlet droplets of tears paraded on her cheeks and then I heard a loud whisper directed to me,

"Please help me",she said

With that ... I began helping her script the new story of her life.

Ayoola Mè 

How do you expect me to love being here when all you do is arouse my desire to leave?

I ... I can't take this anymore.

Ever since I can remember I've always looked for open doors.

I have always wanted to run away,

Packed my suitcase and all.

I knew this wasn't it... it just wasn't.

To think that many out there envy me breaks my heart.

'If only you knew', I think.

Picture perfect it might seem but it's a picture I would never hang on my wall.

See,

I've never experienced a quiet day.

It's either you're yelling or breaking my spirit down.

I hold in my laughter of sarcasm though every time you reprimand me and say "I've taught you things, use them" because I have had to adopt cultures from elsewhere for you were never here to install yours in me...

I DON'T KNOW YOU

And I'm not ashamed of saying it.

You don't know me either even though you like to think you do.

I am not you,

I could never be.

Maybe it's time you start accepting that.

I just want to walk out

And go somewhere.

Then maybe while I'm gone,

You'll learn to love the me that I actually am.

Ayoola Mè

Give me an audience...
 Just for a minute.
See what I have to say won't take long...
Short and sweet it will definitely hit home.

Some put their faith in chariots and many tangible material things...
Some think they're good enough to stand on their own two feet,giving themselves praises for all their accomplishments...

 But I only have one higher being I give praises & honor..
One Messiah whom I gladly bow down to & lift my hands in humble adoration.
See... I'm a born again spirit filled young world changing Christian.
 I am born of the flesh and raised by the Spirit.
My life is a wonder unto many because He who lives in me is the same yesterday,today and forever.

I may have been deemed unworthy in the eyes of the world but the fact that my name is written on the palm of His hands comforted me and because He knows the number of hairs on my head,I know I am special.

 Some may rely on positive thinking for good vibe creating
But I know that the joy of the Lord is my strength... I am catapulted from one level of glory to the next.
I have a holy ghost party no need to get drunk to turn up.

So if it wasn't made clear... let me tell you where I stand.
I am a Jesus Ambassador... the same Jesus that many people regard as normal.
I fly my Christian flag with pride and I nae nae to whatever my tongues bubble out as i soak  in prayer.

I am Ayoola Mé